Well I will give you some benefit that I have a few marbles missing already. Hello I did move from Australia to the UK it is normally the other way round. Lately some of the extended family did that thing when you are taking a leap into the great unknown that you really don't need. They put a couple of seeds of doubt into this brain who regularly goes into double time overload speed.
Fortunately for me I have some really good friends who helped to snap me out of the funk I was in and reminded me that I can do this. Yeap it is time to grow a set and reclaim the previous crown of being a total black sheep in my family as an undisciplined Flibbertigibbet. Apparently I am flighty whimsical female who does not know how to be responsible. Tough life is for the living rather than just existing and complying to external expectations.